If I’m Being Honest…



Today’s Scripture was a common one, but the Spirit illuminated a  new perspective on it. See below.

1 Samuel 16:7: “But the Lord said to Samuel, ‘Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.'”

Reflections: I think that I may have perfected the art of “not looking like what I’ve been through.”  After three plus years in the valley, I would be looking like a hot mess otherwise. *smile*. It helps that God has shown Himself to me time and again during moments of divine provision. I TRULY believe that He walks with me through this valley and has already established my way out. His presence and the faith He’s cultivated within me instill in me a peace that passes understanding and joy overflowing…most of the time. Lord knows, though, if I’m being HONEST, that sometimes I wake in the morning in a panic, feeling overwhelming fear and anxiety.


The outside world rarely gets a glimpse of these feelings, but I know that I can go to God at any hour in my weakness, because He already knows my heart. He already knows about the moments that I feel weak, inadequate, and ill-equipped for the calling He’s placed on my life. …those moments when I want so badly to throw in the towel, throw up my hands, surrender, give up, and take the road of least resistance. It would be so easy, and my life would be so much BETTER! Wouldn’t it? Maybe not.

See, it’s too late. God has shown me too much and taken me too far, to the point where I don’t want anything but what He has for me. My flesh may rage and rail against that reality some days (most days, if I’m HONEST), but I truly believe that what God has in store for me at the end of all of this is better than anything I could ever have imagined. I want that, and I’m willing to wait, and persevere, until God sees fit to move me to the next level. I’m EXCITED about what He’s going to do! So, if you see me, and I look calm and serene, or like I’m filled with inexplicable joy, it’s not a front or a mask, it is an HONEST reaction to and expression of my faith in God’s promise, and the belief in my heart that my latter days will be greater than today.

Shine your light!